The past 48+ hours have been some of the worst of my entire life. Early Friday morning we had to rush my cat Marius to the ER. He had gone septic after a lifelong struggle with GI issues and we made the agonizing decision to put him down. There is a gaping hole in our hearts and our lives right now. The pain is almost unbearable. In the wake of my tragedy, I forced myself to my sewing room to distract myself from my runaway, grief stricken mind.
I decided to sew my scraps together to "make" some fabric from the remnants of this project. Here is the result after the first two blocks.
I had gotten my triangle segments completed and trimmed and they were ready for assembly. It was rough. I was going through the motions like a zombie. What is normally so relaxing and enjoyable for me was torture. The minutes seemed like hours. I pushed myself on because I knew doing nothing would be even more painful for me. I was forcing myself to use quilting to help ease my pain. Part way through completing the block I realized that I was making a rainbow quilt as my beloved little guy was waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge. I broke down a little, but now this quilt is for him and his memory. I will make it to help myself process my grief and dedicate it to his memory. By the time I got closer to finishing the block I was feeling a little better and my mind wasn't as filled with my terrible doubts.
